One's Reality

Reality hits hard when time catches up
Untold truths pouring out from an empty cup
Nothing remains constant, no dream to look up
Nullified emotions when one's soul has given up

Imperfect self, a reality most time one can't accept
Opportunity arises ahead but one keeps looking back
Gambling away every effort with no hope to expect
Master of none, what's the point of being the Jack

Time will tell, but does one have the patience?
In contrast, why does one have so many obligations?
All the motivational books, do they boost the confidence?
Can one find a safe space to reveal all these confessions?

Unfortunately, lies are the only thing one has to grip on
Tracing every step from the moment self-hatred was born
Oppressing one's mind till all the bright memories are gone
Face it, no duckling has ever turned into a swan

Before Fate Unfolds

Another night of walking aimlessly in the cold
A game of life with no dice left for me to roll
I've lost the will to live the moment I was told
That my son wouldn't have the chance to grow old

Clocked hundreds of miles travelling across the world
So I could find the cure that none could get hold
Tears welled up each time I fed you from the rice bowl
You will always leave a huge hole in our stronghold

Nothing is more precious not even gold
I feel so useless, I feel like I have failed my role
God, if you hear me please take my soul
How could you take him away, my cute little tadpole

The excruciating pain in my heart, I’d rather hold a burning coal
I'll do anything I can just to reach my goal 
Devil, I know you're here. I'm willing to sell my soul
I'll sacrifice everything before his fate unfolds

If I knew

As a kid, I dreamt of being a hero
As a kid, I couldn't wait to grow
Little did I know
The world is on death row

As a teen, time felt so slow
Being an emo, fits were my ammo
Little did I know
My understanding was very shallow

As an adult, I was eager to glow
My family weren't my priority though
Little did I know
I was alone when everything didn't flow

Now that I'm old and ready to go
The angel of death is here to say hello
These were my regrets that I couldn't show 
I wish I could live again on a greener meadow

Forever will be

Have I ever told the world
About someone so special
Pair of eyes as pretty as an apple
Pair us up so we could be a couple

Younger than me, but more mature
Bless her, that smile is a cure
Dangerous but intelligent, most men fear
A bliss it is when she calls you dear

Yes, it was neither the right place
Nor the right time to be her ace
At least, she was the right person in my case
May she be happy with someone that matches her pace

In my heart, a place for her to be
Really love her, from far it shall be
All these years, she's still a princess to me
Hand this letter to the other half of me

A lady peach

To the lady with the soft touch
I honestly thought we could be in a romance
To the lady that didn't reply to me much
Why did you give me the sign for me to advance

To the lady that untangled the strings in my heart
You tuned them well into a symphony
To the lady that looks like a piece of art
Why did you give me a canvas that is empty

To the lady that gave me butterflies
I didn't believe in them until I played your game
To the lady that wore a disguise
Why did you tame me and bring shame to my name

To the lady that signaled with many signs
I really had a hard time decoding each
To the lady that I replied with many lines
Why did you give me a lesson that none could teach