Untold feelings

So many questions I wish to ask that I couldn't understand
It's about the way you treat me, the way you hold my hand
It felt so special, "Am I different from the rest of the clan?"
But the way you treat others, "Perhaps I'm just like the other men."

I can still remember the day you invited me for some tea
Hanging out at our usual place, beside that wonderful tree
Spent most of our time like we were meant to be
"Are we just friends?", But it doesn't seem to me
                                                         

You're always there to show me your care
Unintentionally brewing something that shouldn't be there
And I don't dare to share the feelings that I bear
Guess I've been holding onto something that is in the air

Maybe I should cut the act 'cause I can no more pretend
I'm prepared to get into that zone so this could end
Please stop making it look like it's more than friends
'Cause it's a painful thing which no man could stand

Twisted fate

You seek forgiveness but it's too late
Learned my lesson so I'm not taking the bait
'Cause the more I suffer, I will suffocate
You've been showing me nothing but only hate

I can see no reason for me to wait

You left me alone in the darkest of shade
I'm slowly making myself a barricade
The moment I realized your love has fade

You kept coming and knocking on my gate
What more do you want from my silver plate
Don't get the wrong idea, I'm not trying to evade
I'm just taking my time sharpening my blade

Do you even remember the very first day you said
That our love will last, it's gonna be great
It's gonna stay alive till the end but all I see now is dead
All those lies have turned my life into a twisted fate

Dear friend

Dear friend
Before you leave our home land
I would like to give you my precious pen
So you could write something when you miss me then

I wish I could be there when you need a helping hand
I wish I could be there saying you are a perfect ten

I hope you'll be all right when you reach the other end
'Cause I'm gonna miss you and I don't have to pretend

You'll be embarking on a journey with a new brand
Then maybe come back home with a new style or a new trend
No matter how perfect it goes you'll need some backup plans
'Cause every journey you're in has its loops and bends

If there's a heavy storm awaiting to descend
Try to build a fort or seek a lion's den
Don't let failure invite you to its hall of grand
'Cause you are strong inside and I know you can

You have to crawl before you learn how to stand
You have to spill some blood to join a clan
If you lost your way I will summon a Treant
May he guide you through the mystical blend
                                                                  
I dedicate this poem to my dearest friend
I wish her a successful life here and then
May our ties be like the sea and sand
Always be there together till the very end

He loves me not

"He loves me"
"He loves me not"
Your love is nothing but a plot

One day you were here
The next you were there
It seems like you don't really care

You keep playing this game
You keep pinpointing and blame
Just to cover up your own shame
   
One love two people three words
I wish you knew how much it hurts
When your reasons became so absurd
                                             
I can endure no more with the truth
You were so high, high up the roof
So let me be the one to make the move 

      
You used to be the one

You used to be my sun
Let's stop here and call it done

Hey..

A simple hey                                
Could make my little day
Maybe it's strange to say
That both of us were born in May

That laughter, that smile
Makes my heart bursts a thousand mile
But all the boys are in a single file
Asking for her number to make a dial

Before she comes in and starts to dine

Let me check-in and sign
Any soul that is kind?
Kind enough to let me be in front of the line

They asked me, is she the one?
I said she's a gold worth a million ton
But I need to compete with the rest in a run
And try my best to be her brightest sun

To be the best among the rest
Or to be the one she felt in her chest
It's a choice within a chess
Is it me or the way I dress?

Maybe I'm not bright enough for her to see
Maybe I should just be me
Maybe it's impossible for me to reach
Or I should let this be an untold wish    

I may not be the one she seeks

But I choose not to be among the weak
In a dessert there's an igloo made out of bricks

I'll start this journey with a broken stick

Life

Life
Can be too complicated from one to five
Can be too scary that no one dares to dive
Can be too lonely without a husband or wife
Can be too painful when it cuts like a knife

But maybe life has a plan
A plan that first make us bend
A plan that eventually make us stand
And mold us to be a great man

One can be a crew or a captain
One can be a minister that wins the election
One can be anything. It's all about the action
But remember life is not all about perfection

You may be right, you may be wrong
If it didn't matter to you then sing a song
To climb the mountain, you need to be strong
Don't forget about your loved ones. It's where you belong

Sometimes in life you need to pay more attention
To the lesson where your mistakes were mentioned
Sometimes you could feel the heat, feel the tension
But think twice before you make any reaction

In case you forget the purpose of life
You need to book a place in the afterlife
Just pray to god from one till five
Seek his guidance to lead to strive

One step

When you are one step closer from falling down
When your life is about to spiral down
When you are on the edge of breaking down
Take a step back and walk around

You can start by turning the leaf around
Karma is at the back fooling you around
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down

Be thankful it pulled you down

You were too high to even look down

You were too proud you bring others down
This is not the real you. It's a fake account

All the bad deeds from day one till you lost count

Try to be good again and make it count

Take it slow 'cause you tend to miscount

Reflect yourself before you about to go down

Got her back

I have to sit back and relax

Chew all of these Tic Tacs

Do something wick whack

Lose all of my six packs

I'm lost between your nags

Can’t stand it when you start to brag

You're confusing me with all the facts

And now I have listen to the same old track

It all started as a laughing gag

We're going nowhere, we're going zigzag

Now you want to leave me. No, please come back

Baby I'm sorry. I plead I beg

Wait, hold on. You don’t have to pack

Just hold my hands and leave your bags

Look at all our pictures with the swags

Our memories that are stacked on the racks

I know I'm lost and got on the wrong track

I know you hate it when you see these cracks

I know deep inside the love is what I lack

When you gave me your all and I turned my back

I'm gonna fix this. I don't want it to drag

I’m gonna win your heart again and raise the flag

Let’s get back together like the way we slack

You and me, both on the same deck

My Disney

Hello lil kitty, welcome to my Disney
I’m right here to be your lil pretty missy

Batwoman's not in marvel, she's in DC
Pull over here to get some kissy

Bad woman being bossy. Gets a lil pissy
Expecting more than a bottle of whisky

You want me to be sexy? Sexy like Britney
Hot like Lindsay or cute Hello Kitty

You big pussy, a lil too filthy
A risk and a why, you’re getting risky

Hiss hiss there's a snake going hissy
Sneaking in my heart, eating my lil Trixie

Please please I’m getting lil pretty
Pretty sick of you I'm getting prickly

Things getting twisty, stop being hasty
The room is dusty and your love getting nasty

Call the cleaner, things getting messy
Me as your bestie? Imma call the taxi

Once upon a time, not into fantasy
Welcome to my Disney, a big ugly reality

The clock goes tic, tic, tic...

I said math but you said mathematic
I wanted to be simple but you made it hectic
You said I'm crazy, but you're too enigmatic
I just want to be myself standing above the attic

Love was never meant to be so systematic
It should be manually run not automatic
It won't be real love if it's made out of plastic
'Cause the more the tension the less the elastic

I'm not a bot, am not a fanatic
I'm not a soldier with plans and tactics
If you don't know me, I might look pathetic
But I'm actually an electron that creates the static

Let me take out that sheet of statistic
Show you your real true characteristic
Your pride are all over the galactic 
It made you turn into an egoistic

Let's cut the act 'cause the clock goes tic, tic, tic
People like you don't match my genetic
From sound to heat, now it ends with kinetic
It's over. You don't have to be so dramatic

When greed gave birth

Ever wonder what it's like to breed
Between a crow and a dove
I wonder what's hidden below that pit
A place where her greed gave birth

Recently whenever we meet
You wrapped your hands with glove
I can feel your heart trying to beat
But I cant feel the love

Is this how the way you treat
The way I deserved
I'm on my ground begging and plead
But you still on the clouds high above

Time and time you and your fleet
Conquering every single turf
And every single time with care I feed

Something that is not worth

A person that loves to cheat
Is a person not worthy to serve
A life that I have to take the lead
Even on every bend and curve