Raging will

It was a lovely night, we were having a meal
Was holding the ring and about to kneel
Then you showed me your true self, my fate was sealed
No words came out, the tears I have to conceal

This wasn't part of the deal
Showered you with love and paid all the bills
It broke me when you said you no longer feeling the thrill
Is this a dream? Kill me if this is real.

Everything seems so surreal
So numb I couldn't feel
So hurt I couldn't heal
So sick of everything I'm falling ill

Need a space to unleash the wrath of a raging will
Almost done with my life, almost swallowed these pills
Wondering how can I overcome this rocky hill
When you left me alone with a broken shield