Life's Exhibition

I've been walking this road alone. Out of breath, out of motivation 
Another day of self-harming, slowly becoming an addiction
I no longer feel the pain. I no longer have any reaction
And I no longer feel the need to find the right direction

Been looking for a safe space but I keep getting the wrong attention
Fake people around me trying to be part of my life's exhibition
Acted like they care with intentions that are textbook fiction
Affecting my mental state severely with all the unneeded tension

No one can handle the mess in my head, so much complication
No one seems to understand me and I know I'm bad at communication
Only a few that genuinely helped me in every difficult situation
Yet life still decided to add more lemons and a zest of explosion

More addition of the subtraction, zero multiplication for every conclusion
27 years of living hell, nothing makes sense in this equation
I tried dividing my steps and finally found the simplest solution
Someone help pull the plug for me and end this simulation